I've been converted!

I never thought I would truly give up books! I love the smell of them. But my kindle and a recent experience with a book did me in. I was playing with the boys by saying "what does the book smell like to you? I smell trees, adventure, imagination...." Eli said " Me smell". So I let him take a whiff and he said he smelled "pbutter and jelly!" No it did not but at least he used his thinker. Ben just repeated everything I said. Anyways as they sat down for a movie I pulled out the Historian. I nearly went cross eyed. The print is so small!!! My kindle lets me make my font any size so I don't have to squint. I got a headache looking at the words. To add to it I was completely discouraged by the size of the book 649 pages. My Kindle just tells me what percent of the book I have read. I just wish my kindle was water proof and had a button that sprayed book smell! Dreaming!!!!

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Not worth it!

Here is my rant on friendship (and one of the blogs that many nights gets longer and longer-- depending on my day!) My mom say I need more friends and I say why they just disappoint you. True- all those people you went to school and said you'd be BFF and then when you need them the most they are gone. Granted my situation of getting deathly ill in school is different more than most but you just want a friend- not someone who treats you as diseased and won't touch you with a 10 ft pole, It hurts. So I really try to hate people and make them make me like them. I don't let many in now a days because people have made me bitter. For instance I made 2 new friends close to my age this year and all they were were full of empty promises. I got hurt and then said forget them. It makes it hard to trust people I'd rather be at home with myself because I can always do something that makes me happy, and very seldom do I disappoint myself, and when I do, I can fix it!

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Feeling alittle Peetaish!

I just finished the hunger games and LOVED IT!!!! It had a great ending but it's one of those series that you can't get enough of. I however never really thought I would relate to a male character. But I'm a Peeta. Peeta is a young guy thrown into a death battle with the person he's always loved. Katniss, the main character and female role never knows that he has these feeling for him until he declares them to the entire world and really doesn't comprehend it until the end of the series. It's sad how clueless she is and how he would do anything to keep her alive- risk his life. I've had a friendship like that. One that has changed my life and he would never know the difference. We met in kindergarten and were best friends (in my eyes at-least ) Through the years we remained close and only drifted apart after high school (more like when I got sick). Things he's said have effected my life Tons of times and I always thought we'd be close. It kinda hurts to know that we never speak, a happy birthday here and there but thats it. All the times he pushed me away and I always came back- like Peeta. Peeta ends up going crazy and wanting to kill Katniss- I don't think that will happen but the moral of the story is (spoiler alert of Mockingjay) I don't think I will get that ending. I remember thinking all through life we'd marry and be a family but the future doesn't hold that any longer. Maybe that makes me more of a Gale (the other male character who would do anything for Katniss but she sees only as a friend and protector!) Life just has to large of a pull to let our lives interwine again. But I will find someone to see me as Peeta see Katniss. Someday!

Ok that was probably super cheesy but was on my mind, I wanted a nice blog before I go on the rampage! LOL
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But I blog every night!

I have just figured out how I have been lacking in the blog department. But I blog myself to sleep!!! HUH? The fact is that I do my best thinking and flowing when I'm falling asleep. So I create a topic and blog it to myself until I fall asleep. I hope that I remember it the next day but more than likely I don't! I have not abandoned you- I promise I just feel like I already did it!

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Donation!

Some may find this morbid, but I have decided to donate my body to science, on a few circumstances. I will not allow them to bury me and have pig eat me to decide how long it take for a body to decompose. No body farm stuff. I feel that my body is so jacked up that maybe Doctor's can learn something. I mean "HELLO- MY BODY IS THE BIGGEST MESS INSIDE YOU CAN FIND!" Personally I would like to have pieces of my insides on display at museums ( now that is morbid!) Ever since I saw a thing on Travel channel about the museum in Philly that has medical miracles  I want to be there!
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Dead!

Today I woke up to the news that the #1 most wanted man was dead! Bin Laden! I was excited but not convinced. I believe that we believe we got him but not sure it's really him! I hope it is, but I watch many of the reality crime shows and see how you can fake DNA. I don't want to feel so negative but it just seems unreal. Then to that, I also worry that new terrorist attacks will take place and due to this more lives lost. I am happy he is gone- though, I wish death on now one and think it was a nice thing that we carried out barrial traditions for such an awful man (though, I'm not so sure they really did! We believe the news too much!)- but think we may have stirred the bees nest! I want the soldiers to come home to their families and not sure this will help the cause!

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Apollogie

To my readers,

I am sorry for my lack of writing! Contrary to belief I started this so I could write when I feel the need! Yes, I have been wanting to write but as I have found I don't have as much down town as I did when I had health issues. I think that is a good thing. I do check comments and how many viewers I have, but I don't always have the time to sit down and write as much as I would really like. I don't want to have a blog that is 2 or 3 sentences- I want to have paragraphs and pages. If I could blog during my free time at work I would but that is not permitted and I follow that rules. So bare with me and know that I will write when I get a chance!

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