Hope

So I was really hoping that when I got home from Florida the doors would open and I would be pointed in the direction my life will take. That job opportunities would come up and I would be inspired. I did realize I was stupid for giving up on my marine biology dream. I enjoyed all the marine life and would love to work with my sea friends, but because I gave up following that in my degree, I can't. I really enjoyed the atmosphere in Disney and sea world and thought it would be fun to work there- but you can't live off  selling merchandise forever. I guess I'm super disappointed. I thought maybe jobs would open in the school system, but I have been turned down so many times it feels hopeless. I feel  like at 25 I should have the path I want and be settled. Yet I'm more confused then ever. I don't want a relationship until I'm settled with me. I need to find me and my direction. I just feel super lost right now and I guess that's got me down. I just was really hoping to have "my life" together and being on my own next year. Sigh!

Reads

So if your a reader I totally recommend the Hunger Games. I don't ever want to reread books because, well been there done that, but I would and totally almost started them over. It's hard to believe it's a young adult series and I can't wait to see the films.

Currently I am trying to digest and read The Room. It's slow moving because of the dilect. Its about a mother and son that seem very uneducated and are being held prisoners by some creepy guy. The never leave this little room and only get 1 treat every week. I think the woman was kidnapped and raped to produce the boy. I'm only 10 percent into the book, so I don't know much but the boy thinks that everything is alive i.e. the table, the chairs, etc. I wanted to read the help personally but I had started the room before so I wanted to finish it. But it's giving me a headache. I know- I should just give it up but I have been trying to finish everything I start! Wish me luck!

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I've been converted!

I never thought I would truly give up books! I love the smell of them. But my kindle and a recent experience with a book did me in. I was playing with the boys by saying "what does the book smell like to you? I smell trees, adventure, imagination...." Eli said " Me smell". So I let him take a whiff and he said he smelled "pbutter and jelly!" No it did not but at least he used his thinker. Ben just repeated everything I said. Anyways as they sat down for a movie I pulled out the Historian. I nearly went cross eyed. The print is so small!!! My kindle lets me make my font any size so I don't have to squint. I got a headache looking at the words. To add to it I was completely discouraged by the size of the book 649 pages. My Kindle just tells me what percent of the book I have read. I just wish my kindle was water proof and had a button that sprayed book smell! Dreaming!!!!

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Not worth it!

Here is my rant on friendship (and one of the blogs that many nights gets longer and longer-- depending on my day!) My mom say I need more friends and I say why they just disappoint you. True- all those people you went to school and said you'd be BFF and then when you need them the most they are gone. Granted my situation of getting deathly ill in school is different more than most but you just want a friend- not someone who treats you as diseased and won't touch you with a 10 ft pole, It hurts. So I really try to hate people and make them make me like them. I don't let many in now a days because people have made me bitter. For instance I made 2 new friends close to my age this year and all they were were full of empty promises. I got hurt and then said forget them. It makes it hard to trust people I'd rather be at home with myself because I can always do something that makes me happy, and very seldom do I disappoint myself, and when I do, I can fix it!

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Feeling alittle Peetaish!

I just finished the hunger games and LOVED IT!!!! It had a great ending but it's one of those series that you can't get enough of. I however never really thought I would relate to a male character. But I'm a Peeta. Peeta is a young guy thrown into a death battle with the person he's always loved. Katniss, the main character and female role never knows that he has these feeling for him until he declares them to the entire world and really doesn't comprehend it until the end of the series. It's sad how clueless she is and how he would do anything to keep her alive- risk his life. I've had a friendship like that. One that has changed my life and he would never know the difference. We met in kindergarten and were best friends (in my eyes at-least ) Through the years we remained close and only drifted apart after high school (more like when I got sick). Things he's said have effected my life Tons of times and I always thought we'd be close. It kinda hurts to know that we never speak, a happy birthday here and there but thats it. All the times he pushed me away and I always came back- like Peeta. Peeta ends up going crazy and wanting to kill Katniss- I don't think that will happen but the moral of the story is (spoiler alert of Mockingjay) I don't think I will get that ending. I remember thinking all through life we'd marry and be a family but the future doesn't hold that any longer. Maybe that makes me more of a Gale (the other male character who would do anything for Katniss but she sees only as a friend and protector!) Life just has to large of a pull to let our lives interwine again. But I will find someone to see me as Peeta see Katniss. Someday!

Ok that was probably super cheesy but was on my mind, I wanted a nice blog before I go on the rampage! LOL
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But I blog every night!

I have just figured out how I have been lacking in the blog department. But I blog myself to sleep!!! HUH? The fact is that I do my best thinking and flowing when I'm falling asleep. So I create a topic and blog it to myself until I fall asleep. I hope that I remember it the next day but more than likely I don't! I have not abandoned you- I promise I just feel like I already did it!

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Donation!

Some may find this morbid, but I have decided to donate my body to science, on a few circumstances. I will not allow them to bury me and have pig eat me to decide how long it take for a body to decompose. No body farm stuff. I feel that my body is so jacked up that maybe Doctor's can learn something. I mean "HELLO- MY BODY IS THE BIGGEST MESS INSIDE YOU CAN FIND!" Personally I would like to have pieces of my insides on display at museums ( now that is morbid!) Ever since I saw a thing on Travel channel about the museum in Philly that has medical miracles  I want to be there!
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Dead!

Today I woke up to the news that the #1 most wanted man was dead! Bin Laden! I was excited but not convinced. I believe that we believe we got him but not sure it's really him! I hope it is, but I watch many of the reality crime shows and see how you can fake DNA. I don't want to feel so negative but it just seems unreal. Then to that, I also worry that new terrorist attacks will take place and due to this more lives lost. I am happy he is gone- though, I wish death on now one and think it was a nice thing that we carried out barrial traditions for such an awful man (though, I'm not so sure they really did! We believe the news too much!)- but think we may have stirred the bees nest! I want the soldiers to come home to their families and not sure this will help the cause!

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Apollogie

To my readers,

I am sorry for my lack of writing! Contrary to belief I started this so I could write when I feel the need! Yes, I have been wanting to write but as I have found I don't have as much down town as I did when I had health issues. I think that is a good thing. I do check comments and how many viewers I have, but I don't always have the time to sit down and write as much as I would really like. I don't want to have a blog that is 2 or 3 sentences- I want to have paragraphs and pages. If I could blog during my free time at work I would but that is not permitted and I follow that rules. So bare with me and know that I will write when I get a chance!

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111

What could this possibly mean you ask? No, it's not the new number for the Antichrist, it is my go to channel. I recently discovered this channel the other day and was ecstatic. 111 is investigation discovery channel. It's a 24 hour channel (yes! no infomercials) that is the fastest growing network (at least that is what they say!) on crime shows. I find myself asking why do I watch this when I don't plan on being a criminal. But I think I like it because you learn the science behind solving the problems and the psychology behind it too! I took one psychology class in college ( hated the teacher she talked mostly about how she was 80 and still had a sex life.), and I loved the information. My family wasn't so into it because I was diagnosing everyone. I like learning about how people tick- just don't have the patience to go to school for that. I like learning, just not the pressure to be successful in it! I hate being graded on what you remember- but love grading others! Back to 111, the only thing that isn't so great is that they choose one show and show like a whole season in one day. So sometimes I have to watch history channel or some sort of stupid reality show to get out of there. So when you ask, why hasn't Jaimie posted today- blame the following things!

channel 111, the baby eagles ( they have a blog now!), my camera, scrapbooking, or MAYBE I got out of the house!!!

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Obsession

This week is spring break for me. I have learned in the few days I have had off that I have many obsessions. One- the stupid baby eagles. I now have the whole family in on it. We leave the link up all day and check in frequently. I sit and sit and then 20 minutes is gone. It frustrates me some but I enjoy it. two- checking facebook. I am a facebook junkie, but today I want nothing to do with it. I guess like with everything I get bored with it. Three- True Blood. I finished watching season 2 and am upset that they won't have season 3 out until later next month. I can't wait that long. That it horriable. Four my camera. I have done something mon., tues., and wed. this week where I could take out the camera and shoot. I love that- I love taking it out and finding interesting things to photograph. Wish I did it more but everything at home has been photographed and if I stick another outfit on my poor dog she may eat my hand. Here's to hopeing I find something to do thursday and friday so my camera doesn't get lonely. Lastly, my kindle. (Ken!) I put him away for a short period of time and now I love to snuggle at night with him. I rock him to sleep and tell him good night. (ok, I'm only kidding, but he is my friend!) I'm sure this list will grow-- as it does everyday. Who knows what tomorrow will bring!

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Royal Wedding!

I, as many, have seriously considered watching the royal wedding April 29th. (despite the early wake up call!) But I did not plan on getting into it, until Royal Wedding bingo! Holy cow it looks like fun. It's based on crazy things the commentator will say, and what people wear. How can you not have fun. Not I want to make tiny cakes and wear formal dresses and feel like the Beckum's as they Sit in the cathedral. (Hey, I may never get married myself- gotta enjoy one!)

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To Kindle or not to Kindle? That is the question!

I love my kindle (wish I could find a calendar on Kindle that I liked and that the picture were in color!) I love shopping for it! I got a cover and "skin" for my birthday and buying books for him ( His name is Ken!) is like Christmas for me. But my goal was to rid my shelves of all the paperbacks/ hardbacks that I own to make space for whatever I decide to insert. But the book I bought then are not as cool as the books I am buys now. Granted I am a faster reader now and read daily but I always ask myself To kindle or not to kindle? This usually leads to me reading a magazine which was not an option. I'm a mess! Oh Ken! Why do you have to be so appealing!

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More of the War!

I talked yesturday about my love for knowledge of Abe and the civil war.  Little did I know that I would be surrounded by it today. 150 years ago to day the Civil war started (ended?- one says one thing and one says another! I'm not good at date facts!) I makes me want to get out there and explore. I live really close to a few battle fields, the nations capital, ford's theater, the civil war trail and not to far from some key sites in PA and VA. I am the history buff of my family and don't know many with my passion to learn so going on my own is not fun ( and mom doesn't allow that either! I know I'm 25 but I do live at home and don't pay rent so I can abide by the rules!) So here is a shout out to those who are interested in history like me- and if you want to be my travel companion- message me!

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Gotta be Abe!

So, ever since elementary school, I have had a fascination with Abraham Lincoln. I have my picture with a 17 foot tall bust of him. I can watch anything and everything about him on history channel. I bought a book about him on my kindle (It was one of the first). But it truly didn't dawn on me how interested I am in him until today. It started this weekend, when I turned on the history channel to a 2 hour show about him. I watched most of it even though I have seen it at least 4 times before. Today, I was subbing in a 5th grade class when I came across a book on John Wilkes Booth and I wanted so bad to read it. Then it hit me- I'm a nut about The civil war and Abe. I always kinda knew but now I really know. Few of you know I am a history nut. LOVE IT! More of you know I am a scrapbook-a-holic and look for any reason to scrapbook! Then it hit me! My backyard (well, not exactly but like really close) is Booth's trail to run from the government! I could travel the trail and go to Ford's theater. How cool! But I also want to go to Illinois(hint-hint if you plan on traveling there) to see all the Lincoln stuff! That would be so awesome to see all the memorials and monuments! (many of you don't know I am a freak about taking 900 pictures and I am a tourist in my own county!) Oh, maybe I could that into a blog?! I know, I'm crazy and a dreamer- but those are my best qualities! Will keep you posted on my Lincoln Journey. I need to plan out some visits and sites!

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What'cha thinking?

Last night I was reading an article in Glamour magazine. Not the most political magazine but it can make you think. The article was called "10 questions about life as we know it". ( I'm posting 9 because I feel one is not appropriate. It's hard to believe that some of theses things are true. Look at the world we live in! Here are a few things to think about:

1. Why does Snooki make more money in 2 episodes than most teachers earn in an entire year?
2. Skip- not important!
3. Why is everyone worried at Jennifer Aniston getting marries again and having kids when George Clooney is in the same situation and obviously doing fine?
4.Why is congress defunding birth control for women but promoting is for horses? ( I couldn't believe this!)
5.this one was stupid!
6. Why do female Doctor's in New York earn $17,000 a year less that a male M.D.?
7.Why is it that woman host talk shows during the day- and often in groups- while men get to do it solo at night?
8.Why does everyone insist on calling guys who drink too much, beat their wives, and spew venom "bad boys"? They are bad men! Recess is over people!
9.How did noisy, crunchy popcorn become the standard movie theater snack?
10. Really not appropriate!

Some of these make you take a step back and think. Maybe we haven't come as far as we believe in woman equality. Maybe we are buying in to reality "whores" rather than putting that money towards education! (In fact many reality "whores" have no education!) These may sound more intersting to the woman that read this rather than the men, but look at it through the female eye! Besides, did you realize all this was taking place?

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Blog, blog, blog, blog, blog!

I really thought I would post more, but the fact of the matter is all my ideas come to me while I'm in bed at night. By then the computer is off and I don't feel like functioning. Why not write it down? In what note book! I have a notebook for everything! Even a notebook to keep track of the notebooks! (just kidding- but that would be smart!) I have a notebook for keeping track of my life list, a notebook to track where kitty is ( I still need visits to north Dakota and Nebraska), I have a journal, and a few everything notebooks. Not to count the endless piles of lists that cover my desk calendar and note pads. I'm a mess, I know. So you will see what I call blog bombs. Many posts on one day. I will try and do better but for now that will have to do!

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Did you see a cow today?

Today a friend of mine posted that her husband said that it is a fact that you see a cow everyday. That means it can be an alive cow or a photo. But you will see a cow everyday. I am determined to prove him wrong. Unfortunately, I saw a cow today. It was an internet story about a cow who thinks it's a horse. But tomorrow is another day! Did you see a cow today? Good luck on not!

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Poor Japan!

While I'm being political, let me just say how angry I am with the world in it's response to Japan and the terrible time it has been having. Where is the help? For Haiti and the tsunami of 2004, we had telethons to raise money, for Katrina we did too. I mean, I know they are not a poor nation but they are an island that most people were stranded on and died. They lost as much as the Haitian's it not more because they also had a tsunami. But as the Black eye peas say " where is the love?" I have always had a fascination for Japan and it's culture but have to ties there, but feel as an American, that we have provided for so many other nations and yet we can't help them. We gave as much as we could to Haiti even though we were going through the economic down fall and yet they say the economy is better now and we are not trying to raise money? I personally have nothing to give but when a school I sub for was taking donations, I gave the only $5 I had. Yea, it was my lunch and snack money but someone in Japan may not have eaten for days. It was the least I could do!

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Will he be back?

Saw on the news today that Obama has decide to run next election. I wanted to break the tv. I'm not real political, by any means, but think he sucks! He has left campaign promises on the back burner, like the Iraq war. I mean I know he's only been in office, what, 2 years, but I didn't expect that he would wait till his last day in office to meet that promise. I didn't vote for him, I voted republican because I thought Sarah Palin would be hilarious, and we need funny to help us deal with the way the world is now a days. Would it have been the best choice- probably not, but I felt like the republican party may have gotten more done in the short time it has taken for the economy to fall down. I like to think more would have been done in wake of the oil spill in the gulf. I like to think that the war may have been coming to a close and less people would loose family members. I would like to think that maybe there could have been peace in the middle east. All this comes from a person not registered to any political party( I was independent until, Maryland no longer accepted that as a party) and someone who would rather see Abe Lincoln in office or one of the first 18 presidents. Call me old fashion but I have more faith in them than I do today's society. I am now subbing and fear for the country in 50 years. The kindergartners are telling each other they will slash their throats. I was afraid for the world when I was in-school but I see now that it may even be worse. I know some of you that read this and may  hate me for my opinion but, Lord help us if he wins again!

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It's about me!

This is my very first blog! Well, unless you count the one I had on myspace. I missed my blog and it was a hit then so I am starting one of my own.

So to start if off, here is a little about me in case you don't know me. I'm very opinionated and don't want to hear negative things. I love photography and writing. I am a substitute teacher and love it. Well, that sounds really boring but at the moment that is all I can thing of without telling too much. With all the stuff people can do to steal your identity, I gotta watch what I say! LOL!

I plan on starting 2 other blogs to go with this one. One blog will follow my 50 life goals and me trying to accomplish them. The other my traveling kitty. The traveling kitty may seem cheesey but people think it's fun once they see it!

Anyways- this blog is a place for me to write my views, make you think, intregue you with what is going on with me, and what ever else I decide to do!

As I use to say in my old blog:

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